Are you envisioning?
Statement of Calling
As child of missionaries who traveled the globe, grew up with mixed Christian and non-Christian challenges. Saw suffering, fear, rape[TK1] , murder, hunger, and many forms of “thirst[TK2] ”. In our village, and on a global scale.
Faith: Never asked, as in Book of Job: “Why God permits Righteous Ones to suffer?” Never want to increase the suffering; not able to stop it. Never feel lost—never feel at home, except everywhere, in the Journey. Never feel Tempted. Not even Tempted to Exist[TK3] -- leave that up to God to work out. Never doubt God; many doubts of Men.[TK4]
Asked my Father and Mother many questions. They did their best, and apologized for preparing me so little for this world. And now, they are passed from it. Midway, look back, see patterns. Shades of gray outcomes, shape a life.
[TK8] This won’t be easy.
In being called, I call. So much more needed, for counseling, spiritual guidance, and strengthening Churches. Being called to the Collar is not something one does without building muscles and armamentarium. Need tools for tasks. Need healthier, better, sharper, gentler perspective. Kindness.
God’s Mission Statement
After the Fall,
It’s either God’s Call,
or it’s not a Call.
It is manifestly certain little is certain.
Must build Church.
All is vanity, and ends.
Not a moment to lose:
Holy Cross is mirror:
Look in, Son of Man looks back.
Rising vector, plunges down; arms swing open, also hold.
Just when think magnetism pulls, repels.
Alone, looking inside outside, see seeing seer.
Past and Future join black hole Now.
Eternity spins, from dreidel[TK10] to grave.
[TK1] Rape. In fact, this exercise/indulgence explores the patter of issues I have had with “authority”, and whether “connected”. Always a surprise to me. But then again, don’t want to frighten them.
[TK5] Not “spiritual”; nothing spiritual about it. Spirit broke, spat on and stomped. But other than that, just fine.
[TK9] Maimonides Guide to the Perplexed, studied by Leo Straus, Persecution and the Style of Writing. For reflection, we have scriptures and symbols, usually with hidden meanings. Why?
[TK10]Each side of the dreidel bears a letter of the Hebrew alphabet: נ (Nun), ג (Gimel), ה (He), ש (Shin), which together form the acronym for "נס גדול היה שם" (Nes Gadol Hayah Sham – "a great miracle happened there"). The reference is to Existence, which happened here.