At this point
in your existential journey, have you been "called"?
What summoned you?
What vision do you have of a purpose or mission in
the world?
Are you envisioning?
Statement of Calling
The Journey.
As child of
missionaries who traveled the globe, grew up with mixed Christian and
non-Christian challenges. Saw suffering,
fear, rape[TK1] , murder, hunger, and many forms of “thirst[TK2] ”.
In our village, and on a global scale.
Faith: Never asked, as in Book of Job: “Why God
permits Righteous Ones to suffer?” Never
want to increase the suffering; not able to stop it. Never feel lost—never feel at home, except
everywhere, in the Journey. Never
feel Tempted. Not even Tempted to Exist[TK3]
-- leave that up to God to work out. Never
doubt God; many doubts of Men.
Asked my Father
and Mother many questions. They did their best, and apologized for preparing me
so little for this world. And now, they are passed from it. Midway, look back, see patterns. Shades of
gray outcomes, shape a life.
Career dipped in farming, academia, music, soldiering,
and law.
Many successes and failures – colorful
challenging life. In 2011, my head,
handed to me, on platter. Experience “spirit
breakdown[TK5] ”-- euphemism
for becoming Eucharist. [TK6] Had to withdraw.
Now seeking to rejoin the World in another
role. Called not to attend, but to “attend”.
Get tune in right key. Be good
counsel. Not be voice that “darkeneth
counsel by words without knowledge[TK7] ”. Going for
Light, staying for company. Can help. Rebuild
Temple.
Cultivating all and the nine fruits of the Spirit. Clinging particularly to Kindness. (In Nahuatl,
no direct word for Kindness which does not connote idiocy or gullibility. Even so, raised by kind people in village). Emulating.
Beyond words is words.[TK8] This won’t be easy.
The Calling:
In being
called, I call. So much more needed,
for counseling, spiritual guidance, and strengthening Churches. Being called to the Collar is not something
one does without building muscles and armamentarium. Need tools for tasks. Need healthier, better, sharper, gentler
perspective. Kindness.
God’s Mission Statement
After the
Fall,
It’s either
God’s Call,
or it’s not
a Call.
Disputation
abounds.
It is
manifestly certain little is certain.
Must build Church.
All is
vanity, and ends.
Not a moment
to lose:
Must begin.
Holy Cross is mirror:
Look in, Son of Man looks
back.
Rising vector, plunges
down; arms swing open, also hold.
Just when think magnetism pulls, repels.
Alone, looking inside
outside, see seeing seer.
Past and Future join
black hole Now.
Eternity spins, from
dreidel[TK10] to grave.
[TK1] Rape. In fact, this exercise/indulgence explores
the patter of issues I have had with “authority”, and whether “connected”.
Always a surprise to me. But then again, don’t want to frighten them.
[TK4] Unknowable –
The answer for what you don’t know is God. Great Unknown.
Life
everlasting. The Story of God. Simply the story of existence -- In the beginning...
"Life is
self-sustaining." --Morgan Freeman
Regardless of
what they believe, people are more or less the same, and different.
[TK5] Not
“spiritual”; nothing spiritual about it. Spirit broke, spat on and stomped. But
other than that, just fine.
[TK9] Maimonides
Guide to the Perplexed, studied by Leo Straus, Persecution and the Style of
Writing. For reflection, we have scriptures and symbols, usually with hidden meanings. Why?
[TK10]Each side
of the dreidel bears a letter of the Hebrew
alphabet: נ (Nun), ג (Gimel), ה (He), ש (Shin), which together form the acronym
for "נס גדול היה שם" (Nes Gadol Hayah Sham – "a great miracle
happened there"). The reference is to Existence, which happened here.
[TK11] Hologram
- The intermediate photograph (or photographic record) that contains
information for reproducing a three-dimensional image by holography.
